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How To Train Your Dragon : Wtfcuteamg. Toothless is adorable. If i could draw, he'd be swamped in fanart. I went and saw it with Zane this week (he's in Utah for the time being <3). I wanna see it again!

WoW is on hiatus indefinitely. I've pretty much played the shit out of that game, and now since I have no one to play with, I figured it would be a grand time to take a break. About fucking time, I'd say. 9/10 classes 70+. 6 80's. I think i'm good for a while now. I would like a Celestial Steed though. I dgaf if it's a sparkle pony and everyone and their mother's cat has one. I want one.

Been playing a lot of Pokemon, too. Currently working on Kanto in SoulSilver, and balancing out my team. I can now poke holes through any pokemon type except for normal. I'm not in competitive play though, so when am I gonna run into a Blissey? Never. The only normal pokemon I'll potentially have problems with will be Red's Snorlax at endgame, and that's not for a while. I'll just kick his teeth in with my Gardevoir anyway. She makes everyone cry <3.

Zane and I are flying back to NC on Monday. I'm excited to have someone flying with me. I think it'll be much less boring and I'll be all around happier latched onto his arm in the airport/airplane. I'm coming back May 14th, and that following week I'll have a sizeable chunk of overtime to take care of. Squee!

I'm about halfway done making my profile shop on Gaiaonline. I have most of my banners and a general layout planned already, and a couple profiles in the works that just need coding. All i need is the motivation to get it done. That's always the problem nowadays.  No motivations. I blame those videogame thingys. They're sucking away my will to do anything else but play.

Speaking of which, I've been playing on Forsaken RO lately. It sated my craving to play, and for some reason I wasn't instantly repulsed by RO's clunky controls and what not. Oh nostalgia, how I loff thee.

I've been kind of bummed lately over school (or lack thereof). It's just so incredibly daunting to find the right school, to know i'll have years of debt looming over my head, and to wonder if what I choose to major in will be what I want to pursue as a career. I just worry about everything when it comes to college, and I never get anything done. Hell, just thinking about it gives me panic-induced hiccups!


.....andi'mdone. <3

It's been entirely too long.

So much has changed.

I'm no longer with Derek. I thought he was the driving force behind my unhappiness and at the time i left. I now mostly regret this decision, because he wasn't causing my problems at all. He was only taking care of me, a child. We keep in touch, but he's moved on, and so should i.

I'm back home with my parents. I hate every second i spend here. I'm not welcome. My stepfather hates everything I am and I cannot afford to move forward and go to school. I'm stuck in a dead-end job and I have no one I feel i can confide in.

I'm alone.
I'm always alone.

I thought i liked being alone. I thought i thrived in solitude. I've come to think differently now. I'm a social butterfly trapped in a jar. I crave contact with people, and my only source of that is via the computer. The very thing that has corrupted my life is my only outlet, my only relief. Ironic.

I've changed WoW servers. I'm now located on Mug'Thol-US. My priest has been renamed and is now at about a 2500 gear score as Disc. I'm one of the core raiders of , a new guild on Mug made primarily of transfers. About a month after starting Uld10 hardmodes, we have our Rusted Drakes, and are working on downing Algalon10. Uld25 is going down easy, ToC25 we got down this week. I raid far more than I like, and this game is turning into a chore as compared to fun. I'll be quitting raiding soon for some 'me' time.

This blog will be the source of my strength. I will begin working on my graphics again, and possibly photography. I'm going to bring the drive back. Since i cannot afford school, i will teach myself instead of wasting my time on petty games that have devoured my life.

First post, wewt.

Blog, yay. I need to get in the habit of documenting my life. Now, it may not seem like much, but I believe it could help me find what makes my life so mundane, and what I can do to make myself happier. I guess i want to write to find myself, but what am I supposed to write?

I could start with the basics. I am Female, I am 18, I like video games. I like candy, I like World of Warcraft (too much, i think), I like technology, I like art. I love my boyfriend, and my dogs, and my roommate's girlfriend's cat (even though i don't like the girlfriend herself, haha). I love music, and getting lost in sound. I like living in the moment. I hate dwelling on the past, and fighting, and shrimp. I hate artificial people, the ignorant, the arrogant, and the idiots. I hate being late, or being wrong. I hate not knowing, and I hate forgetting things. I hate being disturbed when I'm focused on something. I hate being alone.

Now where do I begin? My day? I'll start there.

Derek (my boyfriend of a year <3) left for the Grand Canyon this morning with his dad and brother (Nick). Every year they go on this hike that's apparently stupid dangerous, with narrow paths, a vertical climb, and stupid high heat and threat of dehydration and death. Hell, his brother almost died down there once because they didn't bring enough water. I fear for his life. I have no way of getting a hold of him for a week, and the first sign i get from him will be about 1PM on monday, a little under a week. Please come back, I will break if i lose you, Derek.

After I said my goodbyes to him, I went back home and went to sleep immediately so i could wake up ready for Raiding tonight with my guild, Racial Slurs n Profanity on Darkspear-US. 7pm rolls around, a good 5 people are in an Obsidian Sanctum 10 man pug. Now, our guild can really only do 10 mans at this point, so people pugging it irks me to no end. 7:30 rolls around, we finally have our 10 people on for Ulduar. It takes us till about 8:40pm to down Flame Leviathan (someone didn't talk to Brann >.<). Our GL is now trying to get 2 tanks 3 heals set up for Ignus, which would have been me (discipline priest), and two holy paladins. I let our GL step in for me since i'm no raid healer, and got ready for work, since i had to leave at 9:30pm. By the time i have to leave, they had yet to start on Ignus.

So I arrive at work, and find the second computer that runs my work on is broken, so I can't run WoW on the first one as i have to do everything else on it as well. The computers have to be at least 6 years old, so they'res pieces of garbage, so I had to find other things to occupy my time tonight, which include this blog, Gaiaonline, and Windows Live Messenger.

Now that that's out, where do i go from there to make it less boring? I'm sure people don't wanna read about my boring day.

..I really don't know, and i guess it doesn't matter.