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How To Train Your Dragon : Wtfcuteamg. Toothless is adorable. If i could draw, he'd be swamped in fanart. I went and saw it with Zane this week (he's in Utah for the time being <3). I wanna see it again!

WoW is on hiatus indefinitely. I've pretty much played the shit out of that game, and now since I have no one to play with, I figured it would be a grand time to take a break. About fucking time, I'd say. 9/10 classes 70+. 6 80's. I think i'm good for a while now. I would like a Celestial Steed though. I dgaf if it's a sparkle pony and everyone and their mother's cat has one. I want one.

Been playing a lot of Pokemon, too. Currently working on Kanto in SoulSilver, and balancing out my team. I can now poke holes through any pokemon type except for normal. I'm not in competitive play though, so when am I gonna run into a Blissey? Never. The only normal pokemon I'll potentially have problems with will be Red's Snorlax at endgame, and that's not for a while. I'll just kick his teeth in with my Gardevoir anyway. She makes everyone cry <3.

Zane and I are flying back to NC on Monday. I'm excited to have someone flying with me. I think it'll be much less boring and I'll be all around happier latched onto his arm in the airport/airplane. I'm coming back May 14th, and that following week I'll have a sizeable chunk of overtime to take care of. Squee!

I'm about halfway done making my profile shop on Gaiaonline. I have most of my banners and a general layout planned already, and a couple profiles in the works that just need coding. All i need is the motivation to get it done. That's always the problem nowadays.  No motivations. I blame those videogame thingys. They're sucking away my will to do anything else but play.

Speaking of which, I've been playing on Forsaken RO lately. It sated my craving to play, and for some reason I wasn't instantly repulsed by RO's clunky controls and what not. Oh nostalgia, how I loff thee.

I've been kind of bummed lately over school (or lack thereof). It's just so incredibly daunting to find the right school, to know i'll have years of debt looming over my head, and to wonder if what I choose to major in will be what I want to pursue as a career. I just worry about everything when it comes to college, and I never get anything done. Hell, just thinking about it gives me panic-induced hiccups!


.....andi'mdone. <3

Break tiem.

My priest is sitting pretty on World of Warcraft with 4pcT10 Shadow. Also managed to net me a pretty belt (Cauterized Cord) and a useful bubblespam/holy staff (Mag'hari Chieftan's Staff). Still haven't gotten a good healing trinket though, was hoping for Sliver of Pure Ice or Althor's Abacus, but neither dropped. Boo. Gonna take a break for a while though. Zane decided to stop playing for a while so I no longer has a tank, and I'm burning out quickly as well.


Time to find a new addiction, eh?


In other news, Barthandelus pt. 2 needs to die. I don't feel like grinding my characters to max Chrysarium status to do this, however, so FFXIII is on the back burner for now. To quell my need for a current game addiction, I picked up Pokémon Soul Silver. Only about an hour in, but i can't wait to get my roster back to it's former Pearl glory. It could also provide a source of creativity, as the little critters are oh-so-tempting to draw.


Till next time!

It's been entirely too long.

So much has changed.

I'm no longer with Derek. I thought he was the driving force behind my unhappiness and at the time i left. I now mostly regret this decision, because he wasn't causing my problems at all. He was only taking care of me, a child. We keep in touch, but he's moved on, and so should i.

I'm back home with my parents. I hate every second i spend here. I'm not welcome. My stepfather hates everything I am and I cannot afford to move forward and go to school. I'm stuck in a dead-end job and I have no one I feel i can confide in.

I'm alone.
I'm always alone.

I thought i liked being alone. I thought i thrived in solitude. I've come to think differently now. I'm a social butterfly trapped in a jar. I crave contact with people, and my only source of that is via the computer. The very thing that has corrupted my life is my only outlet, my only relief. Ironic.

I've changed WoW servers. I'm now located on Mug'Thol-US. My priest has been renamed and is now at about a 2500 gear score as Disc. I'm one of the core raiders of , a new guild on Mug made primarily of transfers. About a month after starting Uld10 hardmodes, we have our Rusted Drakes, and are working on downing Algalon10. Uld25 is going down easy, ToC25 we got down this week. I raid far more than I like, and this game is turning into a chore as compared to fun. I'll be quitting raiding soon for some 'me' time.

This blog will be the source of my strength. I will begin working on my graphics again, and possibly photography. I'm going to bring the drive back. Since i cannot afford school, i will teach myself instead of wasting my time on petty games that have devoured my life.

Nyan, Thusday Night.

Like I said prior, I need to get in the habit of posting these. Who knows if it'll help.

I talked with Nick's girlfriend for a couple hours today when i got home from work. She really likes to talk. As it turns out we have more in common than i thought. She might not be as bad as Derek and I paint her to be because of the fights we overhear. Nice girl, but again, she's got quite the mouth on her.

Fell asleep around 11 after rolling over the laundry, then woke back up at 2 thinking my alarm was going off at 7. Nonetheless, after seeing the time on the computer clock, i promptly shut it off and went back to sleep.

Now this time I really woke up at 7, hopped on the computer, and found we were not doing Ulduar again. Today we actually had a Naxx 25 run going, which is shocking since we never ever run those anymore. I jumped on the bandwagon, and got through Construct and plague before i had to leave. I sadly left empty handed, after 3 shots on my tier legs, gloves, and the Forethought Talisman. I lost the last pair of tier pants by 1. ...Sad day.

Get to work, the naxx got through spider and up to Razuvious before they called it quits. My night became fairly boring at this point, as I did my dailies twice (once before and after the reset), had a good talk with a guildie, and logged off at 6AM to prepare for the people coming in.

Boring, right?

I keep getting the feeling like my life should be going somewhere, that something in my brain should be pushing me in the direction I want to go. The problem with this is that there is no voice in my head. I have no direction. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I just live it day to day. Now, many people have told me I should take time for myself to decide what I want to do with my life; to decide what's best for me. If i follow this advice, i don't know how I would go about it. What should I do?